Went to a BBQ

Everyone was civil, had a drink, the evening went…fine. Conversation was light but bland. I had to leave early because let’s be honest…I wasn’t contributing much. So why do I feel like crying? It went fine. It went fine. It was…fine. I just feel so small and irrelevant.

I Might Have Autism: A Checklist

(Source). Some indicators of Autism: difficulty making conversation I’ve never had difficulty verbally communicating, but I have had difficulty making appropriate conversation. Most of my friends found it funny or quirky that my icebreakers were often an abrupt deep dive into a serious question, like ‘what is your second favourite dinosaur?‘ or ‘what do you